Praying for Hate

Praying for Hate

depression
maybe just the realism
in nihilism
has sapped
the flavor
out of everything

zero calorie
fucking
zero calorie
entertainment
zero calorie
everything

a woeful
lifeless
living
so tonight
i pray to god
to deliver me
something to hate
for adding some zeal
to this lifelessness
and listlessness

please, lord
deliver me
an enemy
tonight
someone
maybe better
maybe worse
than me

please, lord
delivery me
a glorious rebirth
in fear and hate
so that i might finally
live

deliver me
some hate
dear lord
someone
or something
in the flesh
unlike that tired
old coot
satan

deliver me
something to fear
rightly or wrongly
so that i may hate
in the corporeal
instead of the abstract

deliver me
a person
or better yet
people
to hate
to drive me
to purpose

please, dear lord
deliver me
an excuse to hate
so this godforsaken existence
is no longer
so horrifically
languid

amen.