Die Every Day

Die Every Day

i'd rather die
every day
than go on living
for another
single
day

i'd rather die
every day
knowing
at my viewing
my funeral
my wake
finally
come the tears
the tenderness
the grief
the sentimental reflections
from my passing

in my death
i am finally
remembered

in my death
i am finally
honored

in my death
i am finally
acknowledged

in my death
fondness
for what i was
finally
succeeds
in supplanting
if only for days
the distaste
for all
that i never
was

in my death
in my eternal absence
someone
might finally
be grateful
that i was once
present

in my obituary
i am exalted
my memory is polished
and cherished
the way
i always wished
to be exalted
and cherished
but never
was

in my death
my favorite candy
favorite dress
favorite song
favorite doll
is finally
recalled
by someone
other
than myself

i'd rather die
every day
knowing
only in death
will i finally 
receive
the affection
the attention
i've always
deserved

in my death
out of respect
i am praised
in the ways
i always wanted
but never received

i'd rather
die
every day
than live
a single one
cause 
in the days
following my death
come the sorrow
the bouquets
some thoughts
some prayers
some remembrances
the accolades
the testimonies
that i never received
while 
alive

i'd rather die
every day
than accept
the responsibility
of my life
and its freedoms
for another
day

i'd rather die
every day
so 
for all tomorrows
the tragedy
of the life
i wasted
is mourned
and never
forgotten

i'd rather
die every day
cause tomorrow
at least for a day
comes some sympathy
some love
some kindness
in the remembrances
i never got
while living
for nothing more
than the rewards
of my
death