it's more glamorous
grandiose
shocking
profound
to say
people aren't okay
since reactions
to the extremes
are such easy
cheap heat
extremes of black or white
or
too sweet
or
too sour
leave terrible tastes
memorable tastes
of what not to eat
again
or
too bright
or
too dark
to see
causing blindness
or terror
imprinting in us
where not to go
or what not to look at
again
it's probably easier to write about
extremes
than what we all see
and taste
out in the sunlight
because extracting the ways in which
we are okay
stinks of the bland
and banal
and passé
and bourgeois
or a bunch of other shit
used to describe shit
and picking out details
of the okays
extracted from the grey
seems like an exercise in nothing
so I don't know
they say there should be truth in art
so I guess the question is
self truth?
universal truth?
or
truth in the moment
or times
of reading bad news
or just feeling down?
but the world shows me
people are okay
we sin
which is the glamour
but our atonements
too minor
to be the things of poetry
maybe we're okay
to which
a contrary friend says
nopeople are terrible
just look at the history
of the 20th century
and all those who've been slaughtered
to which i think
in addition to
all those we could slaughter
but don't
those we've not enacted vengeance
against
no matter how justified
and easy it would be
to wipe them outnot only thatbut the aid we give
while we in turn exploit
so I say
on the whole
maybe we're okay
and even
just you and me
we are mostly okay
for
as
one wife fucks the IT guy
behind her husband's back
another wife fucks her husband when she doesn't want to
because it's part of the job
of maintaining family
and home
or
an old man is left to rot and die alone in some shitty
apartment
somewhere
while a maimed cat or child gets rushed to the hospital
by a stranger
seeing it struck by a car
an invalid in a nursing home
is beaten and abused
while another patient
in another home
receives gifts and visits
from someone she barely knows
and though more a burden
than of use
to anyone
she's left to live
and treated humanely
and with dignity
until her dying day
yes
we gossip like schoolchildren
while tomorrow
handing out treats at Halloween
reenacting the tradition
for no more than the pleasure
of the costumed kids
that we once were
and we delight in the tragedies of others
far less than the poor cynic
and solipsist
and misanthrope
needs to believe
while
smelling of ass
and junk food
cynical of the holidays
meant to honor
those with far more courage
than him
cynical of the parades
and banners
and slogans
partly justified
but reasoned
as wholly
as he lies in bed
critical
cynical
and
reeking of ass
yes
we emotionally fuck you!!! somebody in traffic who cuts
us off
while next week
donating a coat
to the coat drive
for someone we'll never meet
partly because
we can
since we're more
than the broke cynic
smelling of ass
wellonly at Christmas
the cynic might say
why not all the time?
maybe because
we're only okay
like your dog and mine
that mostly shits and eats and sleeps
lazy by some standards
but loyal and loved
and unlike Lassie
saving a child in a well
or Cujo
that terrorized and viciously
killed
ours is neither hero
nor villain
he is mostly
just
okay
in his inglorious
shitting
and eating
and sleeping
sometimes the sacred cow must be sacrificed to get closer to the truth