If I Thought I Loved You

If I Thought I Loved You

from the womb
some folks are blessed
some folks are cursed
with the gifts
of beauty
charisma 
athleticism
or intelligence

like the cursed
blessing of beauty
leading some to believe
that most other things
like the attention and affection
of their lovers
ought to come
just as easily

like the cursed
blessing of charisma
leading some to believe
that most other things
like a big circle of friends
ought to come
just as easily

like the cursed
blessing of athleticism
leading some to believe
that most other things
like trophies and championships
ought to come
just as easily

like the cursed
blessing of intelligence
leading some to believe
that most other things
like good grades and the teacher's praise
ought to come 
just as easily

if i thought
i loved you
i would tell you
your blessing
makes you special
i would encourage you
to believe
you're entitled
to everything else
just as easily
as all the things
your blessing
had given you

if i thought
i loved you
i'd tell you this
so the disappointment
in failure
in everything else
would leave you with nothing
but a diploma
some track ribbons
some old love letters
some memories of good times
and little else
but me
telling you
just how special
you still are
and reminding you
of all 
you still deserve

if i thought i loved you
i'd convince you
i'm the only one
who understands
appreciates
your precious blessing
for what it is

if i thought i loved you
i'd convince you
i'm the only one
who feels and understands
your disappointments
the way
you do

if i thought i loved you
i'd do my best
to convince you off all this
so you'd love me in return
for that is my blessing
the one 
i'd share for your love
gained as easily
as all the things
your blessing
once delivered
to you