How was your night?

How was your night?

sometimes we text
how was your night?
knowing that
good means good
while okay
means something other
than good

her night was good
i texted
my night was
okay
i did
and didn't 
wanna lie
though 
if i had
it would have been white

why just okay?
she texted back
chemistry
i typed
that text
that explanation
needed to be
ENOUGH
after that
all i wished for
was
okay

she knows
how i hate
working in chemistry
i've explained why
in detail
many times
so when i say
chemistry
it should explain
enough
like feeling unwell
explained by the word
headache
that i feel enough
to not
want to compound it
by explaining
what it is

she should know
by common sense
when i have 
a shitty night
i don't wanna
relive it
by detailing it
like going into the details
of diarrhea and hangovers
experiences
i'd just as soon
forget
than relive
by and in
detail

i hate
talking about
what's already been discussed
what's already known
an eccentricity
i chalk up
to not being stupid
but others
might sensibly
chalk it up
to me being
an asshole

but i can't help
but figure
what's already known
don't need
to be explained
but it seems to be
something
like string theory
i just don't get
cause most folks
in some form or other
seem
to love it
love the words
comforting 
regardless of content
like radio static
pumping through speakers
nothing but noise
but giving assurance
satisfaction
that the radio
still works

i love her
whatever that means
so i try to show patience
and avoid lies
even white

still
she should know
why i hate working
in chemistry
i've explained 
the nonsense of it
so many times
so she should know
when it's done
i just want the nonsense
to be
forgotten
and
done

so when she asked
why just okay?
and i texted
chemistry
i imagined
she'd understand
the rest
of the script
and return with
with 
okay

but she asked
what wrong in chemistry?
i said
chemistry is stupid
i was going for big picture
so when she asked
why is it stupid?
i knew
anything i'd return
would be more
of the things
i'd already said
many
many times

so instead
of explaining
i texted her back
because i love her
and still want
to love her
i typed
i need to sleep
she returned 
okay
so i finished with
i wish you sweet dreams. goodnight.

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