Will to Meaning?

Will to Meaning?

nietzsche and adler said 
will to power
while freud said
will to pleasure
well, it sure as hell isn't
will to truth
so maybe
it's in
frankl
who said
will to meaning

meaning
willed into being
by coalescence
complicating
then spoiling truth
like the rest of us
submitting
to hypocrisy
in our will
to meaning

there's force
and power
in numbers
reassurances
when enough believe
then enough
must be enough
for the extraneous details
counter facts and evidence
to be 
disposable
like gristle
when enough agree
which facts
and evidence
are really
just waste
to the meaning
they've willed

unconcerned
about coherence
cause that's never the goal
the goal is comfort
in the will to meaning
through necessarily
pliable systems
like our pliable minds
of limp and malleable 
metaphysics
politics
theisms
art
overlapping
cogent
like lumps
from different puzzles
forced to fit
as a work
of abstract art
interpretable
as any
goddamned thing
that gives temporary
meaning
and comfort

this will
to meaning
not free
tethered
as it is
always seeking
always needing
staking
then new stakes
for temporary
coherence
and cohesion
since tomorrow's fact
will require
the pounding
of new stakes
or new 
creative dismissals
from our theologians
intellectuals
artists
and politicians

as the world 
implodes
scrambling
for meanings
willed into being
from resurrections
and nativities
grasping for
better structure
better meaning
to cease
further implosion

striving
reviving
birthing
meanings
both new
and old
for balance
in a culture
where enough
meanings
might be enough
to satisfy
enough of us
for a while

within the incoherence
of our willed meanings
it seems worse
sometimes
than the meaning
its incoherence
proposes
to give

that must be
the irony or absurdity
we necessarily
accept:
for there to be 
deeper
richer 
fuller meanings
cobbled together
from the irregular scraps
of ideological heaps
providing the illusion
of depth and security
while inherently
there must be incoherence
and instability
in this grasping
this willful
and desperately
patchworked
and loose stitched
network of meaning
giving way to anxieties
in some proportion
to the amount of meaning
they supply

the paradox
in meaning's bearing anxiety
from knowing 
the structure of our meaning
the whole damned thing
might collapse
so easily
at the tug
of a thread
leaving us with the options
of children
playing princess
or accepting ourselves
as nothing more
than vulnerable
little children
evading that harsh 
reality
by masquerading
as princesses