Holiday Blues

Holiday Blues

tonight
i drown my sins
in beer
and pretense
just like you
drown your sins
today
yesterday
tomorrow
in the crisp
clean pages
of scripture

tonight
i drown my sins
in beer
and cigarettes
just like you
drown your sins
today
yesterday
tomorrow
in a room
all alone
hiding from the world
that doesn't
conform
to our sins

with your
lights
strung from the gutters
among 
the illuminated snowmen
and nativity scenes
tonight
i sit outside
drunk
and smoking
with my
pretentious faith
in nothing
just like your
pretentious faith
in santa claus
humanity
karma
a new year
or anything else

tonight
for the holidays
let's take it easy
on ourselves
and call it
"drowning our sins"
so tomorrow
clear minded
in the light
of a new day
we can call it
"absolution"
cause that
feels
and sounds
a lot
better
than "drowning our sins"
but it's also
a lot harder
than drinking beer
reading books
or however else
we slither away
from the world
that doesn't love us
nearly as much
as you or me
love
ourselves