Conspiracy of Self
most of what he understands of himself is a conspiracy i know a guy full of bullshit conspiracies about the government new world orders the nefarious intent of vaccines and pedophiles who cherry picks the day and world's news and events to ridiculously conform to his bullshit conspiracies it's so ludicrous sometimes i feel almost insulted that he could think i might be so stupid just like him to believe all his bullshit then i realize in desperation for answers to fill some secret void he's convinced himself of alternatives no matter how absurd that offer him better understandings it's a craving for even sand to fill the cracks an appetite i may not have leaving me stunned until realizing based on his needs there's a defense for the preservation of his bullshit that nobody will never breach another guy does a similar thing not about the government or secretive cabals but about himself cherry picking information and observations about himself to flesh out the narrative of his ultimate helplessness like the other guy it's ridiculous almost insulting that i might be expected to ignore all the contrary evidence or might be too stupid to fit it all into a larger picture of himself that he's too afraid to see some conspiracies are true just like some of the things maybe most of the things we tell ourselves about ourselves can be true too while some conspiracies are utter nonsense just like some of the things maybe most of the things we tell ourselves about ourselves like the nonsense conspiracy of one guy's helplessness or another guy being in tune to a wealth of privileged secret knowledge most of which happens to be far more piddle than profound but it's hard to know how to react cause even though it reeks some folks need their conspiracies more than the truth to make sense of what they otherwise cannot
mrobins71 