problem is i get sick of myself get sick of my smell get sick of my house get sick of the things i think get sick of the things i say get sick of the things i don't say get sick of what i like and get sick of what i don't like problem is i get sick of you too get sick of your opinions on things that you don't know any more about than me but you pretend to things i'm sick of thinking or talking about that in your ignorance just like mine you seem to love you don't want to listen and i don't want to talk about all the dumb shit i've thought about a million times don't want to talk about it cause it's boring so boring it makes me sick but you just want to talk and have me listen like a goddamned TV show we've already seen and both know about the bad acting the stupid plot and stupid ending i complain it makes me sick you complain it's better than dead air or silence which is false i'd rather pay attention to your dead air from across the room on a bar stool as an innocent bystander or neutral observer which i know you can't understand calling me a selfish asshole but no i'm generous begging you to give your precious attention to someone far more deserving than me i'm willing to meet you half way at the intersection of our mutual ignorance over something new there may be some joy in that but that never happens because our shared ignorance isn't a a thing to be celebrated only you and your opinions not yet formed over something new those are all there is to celebrate problem is when i'm sick of me and i'm sick of you there's not much left but to hang on at the edge alone in bars symphonies plays theaters baseball games even then i get sick of you for not letting the bars symphonies plays theaters baseball games be what they are i get sick of myself listening and pretending knowing you'll never understand assuming because it's about you that for me it must be about me too but the problem is i'm usually sick of myself which doesn't leave us with much