Wellbeing

Wellbeing

my 
providing 
something
for your mental
emotional
wellbeing
doesn't mean
you 
can provide
the same
in return

i need
some wellbeing
too
some time
to rest
and relax
and recover
from all the ones
just like you
sucking
something 
out of me
that nourishes them
but leaves me
red welted
and itchy bumped
awake
and scratching
when i need
all the rest
i can get
when i'm finally
away
from your biting
and sucking

all
your silly
petty 
yet
precious & pristine
illusions & delusions
of yourself
and the world
the hundreds 
of tiny bites
i've found
no immunity for
their welted 
irritation
the reaction
lasting
days
upon days
scratching myself raw
in bedsheets
specked
in blood

with ointments
and the nights
of restless irritation
the itchy
inflammation
from a hundred
bumpy bites
finally
passes
until you return
to bite and suck
out of me
more
of the wellbeing
only one of us
needs